Say no to P.I.N.K
Why?
I look fat in pink.


period.

Life is a bitch.


Period.

God I'm PDA wif myself.

Pretty damn angry.

Biarlah

by Nidji

aku sudah berlari
mengejar yang tak pasti
mengejar kamu.. hanya dirimu..

kulantunkan hidupku
kubisikkan cintaku
hanya untukmu.. hanya untukmu...

tapi engkau terus pergi
tapi engkau terus berlari
jadi biarkanlah aku di sini

biarlah kurela
melepasmu, meninggalkan aku
berikanlah aku
kekuatan untuk lupakanmu

waktu terus bergulir
sakit tetap mengukir
jalan hidupku.. jalan hidupku..

berikanlah jiwamu
berikanlah cintamu
hanya untukku.. hanya untukku

tetapi engkau terus pergi
tapi engkau terus berlari
jadi biarkanlah aku di sini

kau jauh dariku
kau tetap menjauh dari aku.



p/s: This song is REALLY good but i fucking hate the meaning behind it. Shit.

I feel like i'm losing everything.

Patience.

Friends.

Temper.




and Love.


wtf.

What do u do when u can't stop thinking about someone?
i feel...
lost
hopeless
and
lonely
Mr A ohh Mr A
when will you notice me?
well at least u agreed 4 a dinner together.
u probably would think that:
"oh it's a dinner with a friend."
haha
life is really funny right?

Have you ever felt like the world has suddenly stop revolving?
that was how i felt when i saw him for the first time.
blue and white striped shirt, with a navy coloured long sleeve inside.
soft face, small voice, relaxed posture, long legs.
i can never describe what i felt at that moment.
Things start to blurr away and i my pupils only focus on him.
Him and only him.
the tricky part is that he doesn't even know that i'm here.
here, pretty much alive, watching.
watching his every move because they seem so pure, so real, so majestic.
The songs he sings, the melody he plays
they ring in my ear everyday
every single moment
Things didn't turn out very well for me after that.
No chit chats, no nothing.
Until recently.
God i really hope things will go well.
I hate to admit that i'm defeated,
Lost in a game called love.
I hate you,
i curse you all the time,
but that is because i'm so in love with you
i'm so in love with you that i cry every night in my sleep
i'm so in love with you that i loath seeing people being happy when i'm not
ssshhhh....
i'm here to tell you
there is someone i'm in love with
event hough i can't be with him right now
i still love him.